Over the last four years my life has changed a lot. The vision I had for it 20 years ago was very different than what is my reality today. I am re-building, re-envisioning, re-discovering, re-learning. Separated but not quite divorced. It is an ‘amicable separation’ but we are not ‘friends’ on Facebook. I feel comfortable in knowing that I tried what I could to ‘save’ the marriage. Reluctantly tried counseling at several different times, trying to do things differently… it didn’t save the marriage but it did make the separation amicable and that is a big plus for anyone with kids.
I am excited for the future, an optimist at heart. I take moments to see the beauty in small things and the love that is all around us. It keeps me smiling. So for now, I work at a job that I do well. I have to wear a uniform for the first time in my life. I had to laugh at that. (I come from an entrepreneurial background.) I’ve started night school to move into a new career and I’m trying to renovate my house ‘on the cheap’ by doing some things on my own… except the reno’s have stalled (as has dating) because I have no time. As far from perfect as my life is, I know it is in the process of evolving into exactly what I want. It will come eventually. I know this in my heart. That is not to say that I won’t have my challenges. This whole process is a challenge, but it will be worth it… well before ‘the end’.
I do like the term “Keep Calm and Carry On” as it’s quite fitting for me at the moment.
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